At this rate, I’ll overdub a whole choir of myself by sunrise!

My mind works like this… Certain sounds or words get stuck on repeat, and they fall apart until whatever I’m thinking becomes completely meaningless.

I’m sure everyone’s done this before… Where you sit on a word for a while, and think to yourself “fuck, that’s just a weird sounding word…” Then, you repeat it, for instance, “Salmon“…

You say it again, but this time really stretched out, like “Saaal-oooh-maaan…” and then again, and again, but the more you say it, the less it means, until eventually you’re not even sure it was ever a real word to begin with.

Well, that’s sort of what I do, except I don’t think about it– my mind just jumps right to the repeating part. Most of the time, I don’t even know that I’m doing it, either.

I could have sat for a lifetime skipping sounds in the car outside of the sandwich shop, but as my brother comes out, I look in his direction and I read the address above the door: “1279″.

All at once the noise in my mind takes form, and I realize that it was a series of numbers. I hadn’t even been aware of myself repeating anything until then.

It’s exhausting to inhabit this kind of mind, but to be fair, it’s this very deficit that allows me to write lyric. I just let my mind loop a string of sounds long enough, and eventually they become words.

I guess I’m just scared that one day the meaning will stay lost, and that I’ll find myself stuck in an endless spin. I see people on the streets who can’t find the substance anymore, and it always sets a shiver through my bones.

And when I see that my songs have breathed hope into the lives of others, when I see their faces at a show, or read a late-night e-mail, that makes me feel whole again. It’s the only way I’ve ever really known to connect.

In truth, I have loved, and I observe the laws of decency throughout all of my life, but nothing compares to the bond which music binds. It is my sanctuary, my therapy, and the meaning for my life.

Again…

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Thank you for taking the time to read about my vision.
I hope you’ll stick around and see it realized.

(P.S. I apologize to anyone I may have offended with the “flashy, neon bullshit” bit…)

They that have power to hurt and will do none
William Shakespeare

They that have power to hurt and will do none,
That do not do the thing they most do show,
Who, moving others, are themselves as stone,
Unmoved, cold, and to temptation slow;
They rightly do inherit heaven’s graces
And husband nature’s riches from expense;
They are the lords and owners of their faces,
Others but stewards of their excellence.
The summer’s flower is to the summer sweet,
Though to itself it only live and die,
But if that flower with base infection meet,
The basest weed outbraves his dignity:
For sweetest things turn sourest by their deeds;
Lilies that fester smell far worse than weeds.

I’m now thinking, what if happiness was never like that at all: enduring and transcendent?

Maybe it’s always been more of a treat, like a small candy moment to be savored. And perhaps, instead of setting our sights on the eventual climax, we might fare better by learning to be contented with the whole.

I guess that’s just common sense, but sometimes it helps to put it all down in writing. I might remember it better that way…

(Oh, and the title of this post is a reference to splash mountain, a Disney Land ride, and a related movie The Laughing Place )